Double Vision with Charlie Adley
My friend, a previous editor of this newspaper, has done a runner. Up on stage in a packed arena, I’ve given him a high fallutin’ tootin’ introduction, but just as he would in real life, he’s shunned the massive crowd and had it on his legs.
Enter stage left Jacob Rees-Mogg and Boris Johnson, who come over to tell me that it’s all right, really. Everything’s okay.
I wake up and wonder at the inside of my brainbox. Three times every night it delivers crazy vivid dreams.
I’ve slept eight hours, so why do I feel so tired?
What’s happening today? I’m off into Galway to see friends, and for once I don’t have a big list of stuff to do.
Just drive in and have a laugh. That’d normally put a smile on my face, but I’m feeling all fuggy. A shower and a healthy breakfast will sort that out, I tell myself, and 45 minutes later I’m in my car, Joey SX, heading south.
Why is there is a frown on my face?
Where is my usual exuberance at the prospect of hanging out on Quay Street in the sunshine?
Why do I still feel so tried?
What is this feeling that’s enveloping my being?
Ah, yes. I know it.
Hello old friend. It’s never good to see you, but after a lifetime together, I do know that my depression comes with benefits.
It’s been a long while, and considering what happened over the last year, I’m truly surprised this is the first time I’ve been visited by my black dog.
Then again, it makes perfect sense for it to come now. I don’t have any control over when depression arrives, but this timing seems more than coincidental, as this is the first period my schedule has been clear, save for the most important thing of all: my own writing.
Now it hits because my subconscious has decided that depression is more important right now than creating new stories. That in itself feeds my insecurities.
At least this time I realised what was going on. Rather than my usual two months of denial, I woke up and two hours later I understood.
Often there’s no apparent reason for the darkness arriving, but this time it’s no mystery.
To read Charlie’s column in full, please see this week’s Galway City Tribune.
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